A Mask for Me?

"Give a hypocrite a mask to wear, and he will be rendered incapable of further lying"

It's ironic because one of the roleplays that I've worked very hard to create and maintain involves the creation of masks for the characters we play, yet I never considered what sort of mask I would wear. I'm sorry if this isn't what you expected, but because of the amount of effort placed in this roleplay, when I hear someone ask me what 'my mask' is, I can't help but think of the ideas used within the story.

I consider my 'true mask' to be, rather than a facet of my existing personality, the personality that I want to become. It's also the mask that I try to wear while presenting myself to other people, but in essence, if I wear that mask without trying to change, it's merely a crutch. It's something I use to hide my true character because I'd rather be like something else. Eventually I won't need the mask because I would either have accepted myself or learned to grow into the person I want to be.

For me, that mask would probably be a full-face mask. It would wear a smile with a plain base color, probably something pastel or mint green, but around the eyes, down the right side, there would be multi-colored sparks - creativity, ingenuity, all of it there, present on my face. It would be a mask that seems refreshing at a glance, and feels pleasant the longer you look at it. However, when I try to don the mask, it doesn't fit - the mold isn't right. If I give it to some other people though, it would meld into their face, look completely natural.

When I wear it, it just looks awkward and I feel the same way.

I've written several poems about masks due to my interest in this story/roleplay and my obsession with my characters, one of which (is a short and silly one and) reads like this:

I have a mask
And whatever you do
You can't see me
But I can see you

Because when someone wears a full-face mask, they can see out the eyes, but the other person cannot see through the mask. This poem could be silly, but you could also wonder, when would such a scenario be alright? Is there benefit to the other person being unable to see your true face? Or, in actuality, is the person speaking not happy with the situation?

Do they want their true self to be seen?

And I think I got off topic, but I'll try to get this back on track when I'm not too tired and incoherent @_@

Anyway, here, have a character: Twisted Emperor
There's no real reason to share this guy because he's from a while back and not my best creation or my best piece of writing and I'll probably regret this later... but he's the one that started off my obsession with masks and personalities and whatnot, so I thought it'd be appropriate to share. Context is that these 'wanted personality masks' result in a full transformation, and depending on how much the character depends on the mask, the personality might be tame or completely extreme.